Love of Lights

My generation puts a lot of value in spontaneity: spontaneity of action (fun people!) and spontaneity of thought (witty people). While attractive, I don't think this is necessarily a particularly good characteristic to have -- in fact, the opposite, I submit, is better. Prescience and the sharpening of your rational instrumentality, knowing your end and how to go about achieving it (prescience of action), knowing what things constitute appropriate and interesting conversation and then saying those things (prescience of thought), bear more fruit, I think, than spontaneity. With that in mind, I wanted to write a post about my first semester, so I know what to say before people ask me about it. Socially, it was curious -- interesting, teaching. The most important lesson I learnt from it, I think, was not to put too much emphasis on expectations, especially if they are informed by a mass expectation, which is often itself informed unreliably. Instead, I learnt, have experiences in ...

Organisation is still extremely difficult for me, especially when I haven't been in the greatest of moods and have had to do mandatory midterm essays while other work continued to roll in and pile up. It's gotten overwhelming, and I need some kind of personal, internal revolution. I've come to realise that, in addition to the previous post, perhaps in reaching happiness one has to occasionally work from the outside in, as opposed to my usual attempt at working from the inside out. Perhaps instead of trying to sort out your feelings in order that you can act adequately on them, one needs to simply act as though they had their shit together and the associated feelings will follow naturally, because you will be living the way you wish to, as opposed to merely thinking about how you would like to live. Perhaps they're both valid, but I should like to try out this new method. So I need another operation organisation. I need to think in schedules and time slots like a few...