Emotional Risk, or My Brief Emotional History
I know what the next major hurdle in the development of myself is, and that's emotional risk. Emotional risk isn't so complicated a subject and I'm sure it affects everybody to some degree or another. All I mean by it is the potential emotional pain you may cause yourself by committing yourself to any personal endeavour. For me my problem is largely to do with interpersonal relationships, so I'll be talking about that, though 'personal endeavour' could refer to anything really. I've come to realise that my entire life has unfurled in such a way that it has made me feel as though emotional risk ought be avoided at all costs. I can trace this progression. Firstly--and this is me much younger, so I don't have active memories of this; rather it's speculation--I was born in Botswana and moved to England at a very young age. In this period of development, I'm willing to speculate that subconsciously my lessons first began in avoiding attachments too ...