Love of Lights

Here I sit, listening to Regina Spektor, thinking of all there is to come. My AS Level results came in. They were as follows: A - Philosophy B - Psychology C - Spanish C - English Literature The only shock was Spanish -- I (and nearly everybody that knows me) expected to do better than that, but we're not going to bother querying it. I'm just going to take it on the chin and try to do better at A2. It's sort of good that I did get a slight shock, though. Throughout my life, I've been academically successful and so I have sort of taken for granted that I'll pass all my exams and get into the uni I want to, but this might not be the case if I get any Cs in my final year. I need AAA-BBB to get into my first choice of university, so this means I have to 1) maintain my philosophy grade, 2) try harder in Psychology to push my final grade up to an A, and 3) re-take Spanish to try to get a higher grade at AS level, while working ferociously at A2 to hopefully ge...

I actually made the video! I did the best I could with my equipment/faculty (I'm not making excuses, but Windows Movie Maker seems very basic to me), and I'm proud! (I decided against my own voice-over and used Marcel Proust + Alan Rickman instead).

I'm thinking of making a short video for YouTube once I get my bus pass. I'm not sure, though. I'm mainly inspired by the cinematography of Submarine . I was watching some of the extras from the DVD, and I thought, "How beautiful Wales is; why can't Birmingham be as beautiful as Wales?" But then I thought, it probably is, I just have to capture it in the right light. So, even though I feel absolutely exhausted at the moment for some reason (it's only 01:34! That's early night for summer-me!), I sort of got a 'brain-crack', as Hank Green would call it. When I get my bus pass, I think I'll go to the canals and get some shots of me looking pensively around them. Then I'll get a few walking shots, too. I'm thinking of putting a voice-over on top of it, with something scripted, but I'm not sure what I'll talk about. Perhaps I'll talk about the (relative) beauty of cities? I don't know. It'll probably be awful, but...

This post is going to be photo-less because I haven't been taking many pictures recently. For some reason I've tried pretty hard to refrain from posting photo-less entries because I've somehow created this notion in my head that this blog will be words + pictures all the time, but, fuck it, just words today. There's a reason for the lack of photos. I haven't been out in ages! I have the sort of dynamic with my friends that makes sure I only ever see them when we're in a group and going out to do something specific. We don't just chill as friends do; we don't just get together and chat or anything like that. No, it's strange. We have outings and that's it. And if nobody has money for an outing, we won't see each other for weeks-on-end. I don't really think that's what friendship's about, and although I like my friends, I feel like I'm in this weird, undefinable space between 'friend' and 'acquaintance' with th...